Hey look, he isn’t dead…

well i got a little stupid/lazy and never got in to the habit of blogging. anyway, here’s a blog about Julie Lundquist’s “Class identity…”

The story is pretty basic, but it illustrates a point. The regulars at a local bar come in every day, and ritualistically talk about the same issues. It seems like nothing specail, but it is. These people have a home, a place to go where they fit in. Even julie, the bartender, has a place where she fits in the puzzle. The specific event with Jack allows you to see that, even though the “smokehousers” are all very similar, they are all different. Jack is very opinionated, and even though he knows that everyone believes as he does, still “forces” his point across the patrons. Overall ths story shows that conversations, however mundane, are extremely important.

note to self

junaman.wordpress.com

class freewrite, 9/20/06

Why are 2 million people locked up?  before I saw the film “what I want my words to do to you”, I thought that it was because they were all bad people. They were bad, they broke the law, there was something that they did that was a reason to keep them away froma civilized society. I thought that all prisoners were bad. I was astounded, repeat; astounded, that such humanity and compassion was to be found inside a max security prison. I saw some of those people and thought, “wow, these people are at a level that I may not reach for 50, 60 years. these people are stuck in that jail, and they should be out in the world, where they can be doing real good.” Now, I’m not saying that we should band together and empty the jails, because not everyone in the prison was like that, i’m sure. but, witht he proportion of people who could easily be let out and trusted to not kill/steal/sell drugs/etc. again, It’s astounding that they are still locked up. and if there were that many people in one jail like that, then what sbout the rest of the country

late blog assignment #2

alright, please dock me the appropriate points for posting this so late. I blew it. and now, to the actual blog

I totally enjoyed the reading from The Liar’s Club. I found it to be very intriguing. It showed me that everyone’s story has a bright side, and we should all be able to see it. I’ve been guilty of not seeing it in the last several days, but that’s another story. It hit me pretty hard, though, to see that mentally been moping around the last few days. I felt like Mary Karr at the beginning, when she was always upset, and a little guilty over all that happened. it felt like I was just going through the motions, waiting for everything to just go away. and it really didn’t help. although going home helped me get through it, in a similar way as the author. Mary Karr had to come to terms with her grandfather, and his health, and then to find the good side and move on. I had to come to terms with my situation, and find the goodness in it, and just move on. i did that, and now I feel great. I’m ready to take on the world. I’d bet that Mary Karr had a similar feeling when she came to terms with her gradfather’s illness, and his sirsumstances.

I also neglected to mention that I gound a good side to my situation. I found that It was not important to have the relatioship i was looking for, and that it was just easier to move on and concentrate on all my other stuff, and maybe something even better will happen down the road. It’s just a strange thing.

As best said by Ozzy Osbourne, “We’re running off the rails on a crazy train..”

Blog assignment #1

FOXNews.com – Reports: Two Gunmen Open Fire at Montreal College – The Americas

So this is another story of a “school shooting”… where  does this come from? What in the world could cause such a huge stress and strain on a student, not just in college, that causes them to resort to this? Given the current details, it seems as though there was no harassment involved (like the Columbine shooting), so why just open fire on the innocent people in the lunch room? what could they have done to deserve any of this? I can’t see any reason. I understand the stress of school, and i have always been under that pressure, because of my parents wanting me to keep such high standards. even now, I need to keep a certain GPA to keep my scholarship, and that causes some stress. but I have no designs on assaulting/hurting/killing anyone at this college. even those professors I am not entirely fond of (we all have that one or two professors that we don’t completely like, don’t judge me for it) are still not worth hurting or taking their life. period. All the students there will never be the same. some will probably be traumatized, and may not be able to continue their education. and as for the twelve that were injured, my prayers are with them. they more than likely will not be able to continue there eduction for a while, and those in critical condition may very well not continue their lives… where does this madness begin? I just can’t grasp this concept that killing innocent people can solve your problems, or make any real statement (other than, “hey, look at me! I’m crazy!! I kill people to solve my problems!!). Although that brings up all sorts of other questions…

Class freewrite, 9/11/01

So we need to refect on today. well, it’s been five years since we were attacked. 365 days x 5 years. i can’t do the math in my head, but i do know that that’s a lot of days. everyone in this country is 5 years older. 5 years more mature. 5 years wiser than we were. i know that i remember that day quite clearly. I was in 8th grade, my last year of middle school. I was having a pretty rough year, even though there were only 2 weeks of school that had gone by. but I had a rough time in middle school anyway. I was bullied and harassed throughout Middle school, and that was bad for me. I didnt have many friends, and I didn’t have anything else going for me. I was not good looking, or athletic, or a good talker. I didn’t watch MTV or most of the “popular” things on TV, so basically, I had nothing. well, almost nothing. I was smart. I could pass tests and keep my grades up. But all that did was give me something to look forward to only 4 times a year. even then I still was told by my parents that I could do better. I had 90’s and better, usually. I dropped a point or two here or there, and I was told that I neede to work even harder. I still recall thinking, “wow. all the other kids talk about how they get $25, $50, $100, some new video game, anything else, and their grades are in the 80’s. not that that’s bad, but all i get is being told to work harder, the what i was doing wasnt good enough. My grades are better than theirs. why don’t my parents tell me i did well????”

wow. I went so far off topic. If you read below, you might realize that thing like thos are why I wasted my time trying to grow up. things like this are why I didnt enjoy my childhood as much as i should have. things like this are things i regeret. Things like this are things I will never do as a parent…

What the…

alright, here is my blog of interest.

http://www.alarmingnews.com/

I’m intrigued, mostly because it had the most detail about the “Lonelygirl 15″ story from youtube.com. honestly, I hadn’t heard about it, and I just want to find out what the hell is going on there. It also has a good story about 9/11, and what happened to the author that day. I remember that day too, but thats another story…

anyway, alarming news seems to be just a general blog by a woman in NYC, who is a political consultant. so occasionally there will be some varying viewpoints. it’s ok though, because it can put a whole new spin on things… no pun intended

oh yeah, news site…

www.foxnews.com

call me a right-wing wacko if you want, but realize that I don’t belittle you for your beliefs, and I can have an intelligent discussion about them if I want to. I feel that the conservative style of government works better, and that’s what it amounts to. But I also feel like a moderate conservative, so I don’t believe that liberals and democrats are crazy,. because they have good ideas sometimes. so yeah, that’s what it’s about and the basis of the site is general/world news, although it has a slight conservative spin to the reporting.

Crikey!

BEERWAH, Australia — “Crocodile Hunter” Steve Irwin, killed in a freak stingray attack this week, would not have wanted a state funeral because he wanted to be remembered as “an ordinary bloke,” the TV star’s father said Wednesday.In the first public comments by Irwin’s family since the hugely popular naturalist died Monday, Bob Irwin thanked his son’s many fans for their messages of support, and said his son died doing what he loved.Prime Minister John Howard said a state funeral was appropriate, calling Irwin a great ambassador for Australia. But Bob Irwin said it wouldn’t be what Steve wanted.• Video: Should Video of Steve Irwin’s Death Be Released?”He’s an ordinary guy, and he wants to be remembered as an ordinary bloke,” Irwin’s father said. “The state funeral would be refused.”The 44-year-old TV star was being filmed snorkeling with a stingray on the Great Barrier Reef when it lashed out with its tail, plunging a poisonous barb into his chest. He died minutes later.Thousands of fans have flocked to his Australia Zoo wildlife park in Queensland state, creating a shrine of flowers and written tributes.
Bob Irwin, who started the wildlife park that his son turned into a major tourist attraction, said Steve realized his work was dangerous and that he could die doing it.”Both of us over the years have had some very close shaves and we both approached it the same way, we made jokes about it,” he said. “That’s not to say we were careless. But we treated it as part of the job. Nothing to worry about really.”• Related Story: Stingrays Poisonous, but Rarely Kill Humans”We weren’t like father and son, we never were,” he continued. “We were mates. I will remember Steve as my best mate ever.”Michael Hornby, the head of one of Irwin’s wildlife charities, Wildlife Warriors, said the star’s wife, Terri Irwin, was considering the state funeral offer, but Australian Broadcasting Corp. radio later reported that she had already decided against it.Hornby said Terri Irwin was also thinking about having a smaller, private ceremony at an Outback location and approving a separate large event at a stadium in the state capital, Brisbane.Separately Wednesday, Irwin’s manager and close friend John Stainton said the videotape showing him being fatally stabbed should never be publicly aired.”It should be destroyed,” Stainton told CNN’s “Larry King Live.” He said he has seen the footage and it shows Irwin pulling the barb from his chest in his last moments.The tape is in the possession of police as evidence for the coroner.The Discovery Channel, which produced and aired Irwin’s programs to a reported global audience of more than 200 million, said it will not show the footage.Police have said there are no suspicious circumstances in Irwin’s death, and no decision has been made about whether a coroner will hold a formal inquest or simply accept the police findings. No formal cause of death has been announced.Terri Irwin briefly addressed park staff late Tuesday over a public address system.”She was very choked up. It was a very frail comment,” Hornby told The Associated Press Wednesday. “But she wanted to say to the staff how grateful she was for their support and how much it meant to her.”Bob Irwin said he had just spent nearly a month with his son’s family on Cape York in tropical northern Australia doing crocodile research.”Steve was probably the best I had seen him in many years, in his own personal attitude,” he said. “He was peaceful. He was not under stress. And he was doing something that he really loved doing. I won’t ever forget that three or four weeks.”

FOXNews.com – ‘Crocodile Hunter’ Wouldn’t Want State Funeral, Father Says – Celebrity Gossip | Entertainment News | Arts And Entertainment

RIP Steve Irwin

This atricle totally echoes my sentiments. Everyone was so surprised that he died, but i really wasn’t. Don’t get me wrong, I think he was a great man. A great researcher, father, son and husband. But he was in a dangerous profession. He was at times making dangerous animals angry, which could just be dangerous. I’m sure he knew the risks. and was obviously willing to take them. Nobody should be overly surprised, and it bothers me that many people don’t realize that he was doing a dangerous job. and please don’t tell me that he did it so many times before that it shouldn’t have been a problem. each animal is different, and that means that each time the danger is the same.

RIP Steve Irwin- Here’s a big “Crikey!” for you, mate!

So, about my title…

I really have no idea what’s going on with the rest of my life. I have an idea, but that’s about it. I had a wierd childhood, and I really try to get away from it. I spent most of it trying to grow up. and so I accept that I won’t get it back. Now I’m in college, and I want to figure out who I really am. I spent too much time thinking about what I wanted to become, that I never really figured out who I am now. That’s where I am right now. I just want to move along in my life, become an adult, and figure out what the hell’s going on, and still I have problems with that. I’m like a lost little kid, and I don’t really know where to go…